my sanctuary…

It’s Been Quite A While…

…since the last time I danced. Roughly 3 years, ever since I came to the big city.

Am no bona fide dancer, just an amateur with a slight streak for dancing, who loves to move it out but is too lazy and seriously lacks discipline and the likes to go professional.

Like the very loose ends of any of my other endeavors.

Oh, well… Me and my lazy self. I’ll stop at that for now, had ranted enough of it in the past.

Ahem, moving on…

I love especially the kind of modern dance one usually sees in pop music videos, where there’s a lot of coordinations involved, all the little details and (especially intricately) combined movements of the hands, legs, head and body. I always look on with admiration and envy whenever I watch those music videos or recordings of the artistes’ live performances. They really look so cool as they execute all those professionally choreographed movements and steps… *starry-eyed*

That’s just me, anyone who doesn’t think so doesn’t have to agree with me and doesn’t need to argue with me too.

Ahem, moving on…

3 years, picking it up after more than 3 years of practically zilch practice… My body which has never been quite flexible (if any) at all, has indeed become stiffer. Just a few steps made me break out in profuse sweat and had me caught my breath a few times. *sweat*

Or maybe it’s just the heat in the room from having the curtains pulled together for fear of passers-by noticing me making a fool out of myself. *blink*

Well, I was actually practising a new dance. Naturally, a new dance + years of missing out on practice = a dance klutz. Of course I’m afraid of having people see me lah. *blink*

I got hooked on the videos since last weekend, both the music video and some live performances. I’ve watched and watched and watched them all (all the while imagining yours truly recording a video of yours truly dancing it out ever so coolly and putting it on YouTube, ahem…) until I thought I had finally gotten the gist of some of the movements. I had them on my mind already, so I thought I should be able to execute them just as fine…

Not.

Realization struck when I tried the very first movement. It felt so unnatural. *blink* *blink*

I should’ve known from past experiences… Okay, I think I did recall but I kind of put it at the farthest corner of the back of my mind as I enthusiastically take on the maiden step after such a long time. But I wasn’t quite disappointed with myself because I’m somewhat sure that I’ll get better and better and better with lots of practice. *big grin*

My aging body might be an obstacle, but I’m conveniently ignoring that right now, hehehe… At least for another 10 years anyway. *blink*

My personal dance lessons would normally be done this way, I’d watched them videos repeatedly, pausing and playing and rewinding them every now and then to catch all the movements in my mind first. Then I’ll try out the movements and steps, but I’ll practically mess them all up due to wrong timing and clumsy coordination, which will be polished again and again and again by going back to the videos, pausing and playing and rewinding them again and again and again. The best way to rectify the timing and coordination problems would be to dance to the videos incessantly to make sure that I’m following them correctly.

After all that, it’s practice all the way to get the better hang of it until it’s embedded in every cell of my body, so much so I’m practically one with it, hehehe… Okay, okay, that is, to the point that the dance comes to me very naturally, that I’d never forget how the dance works and would be able to catch up immediately after a few tries even when I’ve been out of it for quite some time.

I’m definitely looking forward to the day I totally master this dance. *big grin*