My own 2010 countdown began more than a month ago, in a well-meaning but not-quite-successful effort to remind myself, being the procrastinator that I am, that time is of the essence as the passing of 2009 unwittingly accelerates (well, it is the last quarter of the year already…). I obligingly put up “27/10/2009: Only 66 days left for 2009!” in my Facebook after posting a similar status message on MSN the day before of which prompted a mild disapproving response from a colleague who actually felt saddened being reminded that the year is ending all too soon.

Something along the lines of feeling not much has been done albeit the fact that more than 10 months had passed by since the start of 2009.

It’s the unpleasant bite of reality that most of us share as we age. (!)

Well, at least it got her reflecting on it and she actually began telling people to put in effort to enjoy more and extract more meaning out of life, especially as the year nears its end, because those are the memories that count when we reminisce the past. Being a workaholic at one point in her life made her realize that all those extra time spent on work made time passed by all the more unknowingly, unappreciated and in the end, lost. As if nothing much had been done.

Which really equated to lost chances to create sweet and everlasting memories, boring as they might be, yet undeniable proof for herself that she had indeed lived up her life.

Sigh.

As for me, I’m not a workaholic. In fact, I’m anything but. Yet, I don’t have much memories of anything simply because… I’m actually a social recluse? (!)

Okay, I’m exaggerating. Well, a little. And not really making any sense. But am not delving into this now. >.<

So the year is ending and more than a month had lapsed since the informal proclamation of my countdown and… I haven’t done much to redeem myself in spite of my original noble intent of starting the countdown. *sweat*

Now, it’s as if I’m countdown-ing just for the sake of countdown-ing.

Oh, well. Unsurprisingly. *shrug*

Okay, picking myself up and going to get things done. Make solid and viable resolutions. Tie loose ends everyday. Fight laziness and procrastination every second of the day. Realize my dreams (hmmm, what are they…). Be sure of myself, know what I want and be a go-getter.

Hmmm. Fight laziness and procrastination every second of the day. Tough one.

I’ll start with everyday first… Uh, make that every week… Um, perhaps every month…

It’s fictional, anyway. *shrug*

From what Wikipedia summarized, I feel as if I’m somewhat like him, with my faineance and all. Except for the amiable and loved-by-all parts. And I don’t have a cantankerous wife… I mean, husband… Uh, not right, I’m not married! But anyway, it was autumn the day he fell asleep till kingdom come, and I love autumn!!

Okay, I digressed.

I’ve mentioned that of late, I’ve been having (again!) this habit of not wanting to sleep even though I’m really sleepy. Alas, I’m still having it, and the side effects are hitting me with a vengeance.

Okay, I exaggerated.

Then again, maybe not.

I’ve been falling asleep incessantly at work especially in the afternoons. I have trouble focusing and remembering what I was doing, falling asleep almost instantly the minute I have my attention on my work (shhh, do not tell the boss!). I look pale with sunken eyes, and I feel terribly worn out. With what I’ve heard about sleeping late having bad effects on the liver, I’m scaring myself with thoughts that my liver is slowly malfunctioning. Which probably is. *gulp*

To top things off, I don’t get enough sleep even on the weekends. And I’m a homebody. Yeah, go figure.

The fact that I can still blog out this much is a miracle. (!)

I must save myself~~~ *wail* From myself~~~ *wail even louder*

I’ll be back in another half an hour after that to do another update.

And I’m done for now. Only 6 more minutes to laze around. This is a rather frail attempt to instil punctuality in me.

3. Can’t believe it took me 3 minutes to come up with that sentence!

I’m outta here!