Sunday night, I finally received the email’s sequel that I’d been waiting for more than a week(!) As expected. The mails almost never arrive in my mailbox (or inbox) when I need them to.

It was a sombre email, one that almost signalled an end. Being the crybaby I am, I cried my heart out first, all the negative thoughts popping up like crazy. My heart was really sore.

What’s worse is, I am still torn between letting go and persevering on… Decisions, why are they so hard to make?

Sometimes I’m convinced that we’re not meant for each other, that letting go would actually do good to both of us. The long-distance all this while is not working out for us, it costed us dearly on our understanding of each other.

But, we still love each other and somehow a part of me wants to believe that it can still work out well…yet doubtful due to the damaging long-distance… That part of me wants to give it another chance before giving up for good…

When the time is right, we’ll be having a deep heart-to-heart talk about it…to decide where to go on from here… Hope we’ll make the right decision…

Aaaaarghhhhh. :’(