Not to mention the pulsing disco beats from a passing car. *duh*

Just came back from a wedding dinner more than 2 hours ago. As such, the night somehow feels quite young, the feeling is something like I haven’t been at home long enough for the night before I decidedly turn in.

*silence*

Okay, one might need to be me to fully comprehend that last half sentence. *blink*

Man, this is so going to hurt when I wake up for mass 4 1/2 hours later. I always fall asleep especially during homily. Readings too, if I slept really late the night before.

Like now. Shame on me.

The last time (scroll to the end of that entry to see what I mean, ahem…) I did this, I ended up skipping the Sunday mass altogether. *gulp*

Hopefully it’s the opposite ending this time. *fingers crossed* Though I’m pretty sure I’ll fall asleep again midway through the mass. *blink*

I’m getting it again these few days, the feeling of not wanting to sleep even though I’m truly, seriously sleepy. I don’t know why exactly I get it, but I somehow think it’s got something to do with subliminal anxieties over the troubles in my life, ranging from my own character flaws to problems affecting my loved ones.

Sigh, this is life.

Well, to do justice to what the Lord had blessed me with (and I always believe He has been and always will be on the lookout for me…), my life ain’t bad, this I must say. But I am pretty much bothered by my character flaws most of the time. And some of those flaws make me quite ignorant to problems inflicting my loved ones until I am suddenly reminded out of the blue that the problems are still there.

Problems need to be solved. They don’t just go away on their own.

Sigh.

But leh, procrastinating my bedtime is not doing any good in solving the matter, especially when I’m not really doing anything at all to put an end to it during the supposedly extended time. I know this, yes, I do, yet I still don’t feel like turning in even though the eyelids are drooping like mad. @.@

Or maybe, it’s just a bad habit going haywire. >.<

I am such an idiot.

I’m essentially robbing myself of my health for no apparent solid good reason. *blink*

That’s what most people are doing most of the time, I presume. But that doesn’t make it a right thing to do, does it?

No loh.

Okay, this is going nowhere. I don’t even know if I make any sense typing all these out. Sigh, I’ll turn in now.

Good night, world.

The drizzling rain infuses life into the quiet night. There’s hope… And then, there’s loneliness too.

Sweet Surprise #1

Got back in touch with my uncle’s family through MSN last night (all of them living in New Zealand for more than 20 years now), my cousin asked my youngest sister for my and the rest of my siblings’ MSN contacts. The last time I saw them, especially my aunt and two adorable cousins now all grown up, was more than 10 years ago! My cousins were just kiddos then… And now they’re actually in their 20s!

I feel so ancient… >.<

Anyway, we chatted via video call on MSN. My uncle and aunt still looked pretty much the same, perhaps a wee bit older and also rounder, haha, but my cousins, my, they’ve really grown! And I thanked my lucky stars that something was wrong with the connection between my laptop’s webcam and MSN which disabled the webcam from functioning on MSN. I could see them, but they couldn’t see me! *big grin*

Sigh, avoid as much as I may, I better fix myself up before anyone who hasn’t seen me for a long time sees me again in my current state. Nothing serious actually, just that sleep deprivation, unhealthy diet and some other not-so-bad-but-not-so-good-either habits has taken a toll on my body, giving me a pale and older-than-my-age look almost all the time. *big sigh*

That aside, I was really elated even though there were some lapses when we didn’t really know what to talk about =P I look forward to more exchanges with them and hope to visit them one day too. =)

And I hope that doesn’t remain a hope only too. *cross fingers*

Sweet Surprise #2

Two petite middle-aged ladies made room for me in the electric train when I was on my way home from work. I had just managed to get right in front of one of the seemingly full train’s doors when I stopped in my tracks after deciding not to squeeze into the train after all (the trains can get really full before and after working hours, sometimes with people squeezing in desperately for a spot that might not even fit them, sigh… can’t really blame them when trains do not arrive promptly even during peak hours, sigh…), ready to wait for the next train when the two ladies shifted and gently prompted me to get in anyhow.

I was really touched. Honest. You don’t get much of that often around here.

And I did got in, haha, laptop and all. Well, it wasn’t really that full. *big grin*

And… I somewhat felt ashamed of myself. I would usually silently, uh, scold those who squeeze in, regardless there were still room or not. I don’t particularly recall stepping aside like what the ladies did for me.

Hmmm… Maybe I did too. On the good days. =P

True to the title of the blog, I haven’t updated this blog since its grand inception five days ago.

I am truly sorry and ashamed. Of myself.

I am. (!)

Nothing much happened, and I didn’t quite make anything happen too, of course. Well, you can’t really expect much from a lazy bum, can you?

Hmmm, maybe there would be times when you actually can…

Anyhow, if only I was slightly not so lazy, I would have updated this blog at least twice for the past few days.

Honest. But since I didn’t, there’s not much to say. Of course I can always back date the posts… But… L-A-Z-Y.

Whoa, just found out something utterly surprising. But it’s a secret, so if I am to blog about it, it will be a private blog entry anyhow. Duh.

… … … … … … … … …

Maybe I can draft it into something public somehow.

My thoughts have been rather jumbled up lately, I am having quite a hard time organizing myself actually, both my thoughts and my actions. Sigh, same old problem of bad organizational skills. Hope reading Daniel Goleman’s Emotional Intelligence helps. Somehow.